Being a whore taught me to swallow resentment like nothing else. I learned to hide my disgust at clients’ wealth and entitlement, dodging questions about my true opinions and stroking egos to keep them sweet.
Category Archives: Experiences with Clients
Sobriety and Selling Sex
In this article, I discuss recently becoming sober and how it’s made me reflect on the ways I was using substances to cope with bad clients or overcome my nervousness about seeing clients.
Anti-Capitalists Selling Sex
For roughly as long as I have been selling sex, anti-capitalism has been central to my core values. There are many people who find my identity as an anti-capitalist to be in conflict with my identity as a sex worker, but I find them to be in perfect alignment.
Reflections on Sex Work During the Covid Lockdown
Covid has had a profound impact on how many sex workers view health, including the health of our clients, and the way we work. I don’t think enough of us have taken the time to consider just how much, and I finally have been.
Clients Cancelling
A cancellation from a sex worker is a minor inconvenience to a client. They can book another sex worker or forego seeing one without any significant consequences. If a client cancels on a sex worker, that cancellation may be the difference between being able to afford food or rent.
Post-Client High
As long as a client is not outright abusive or uniquely difficult, the moments after finishing a booking where I hold the money in my hands are an immense high for me. The novelty of earning a day’s wages at another job in the space of an hour never fully wears off.
After Client Aftercare
Sometimes my need for aftercare has been due to a client harming me. Far more frequently, I need it to insulate myself from the stigma which makes me feel alone and ashamed and far more resentful, than I otherwise would be, of an experience which is usually more on the side of annoying than traumatic. Being around other sex workers frees me from those feelings.
Sexual Autopilot
I’m sure it’s not strictly true that I can’t have sex without slipping into what I think about as my “sex autopilot” mindset. For now, I seem to slip into it often, and it destroys my romantic relationships.
The Whales That Got Away
Every now and again, a client comes along who is abnormally wealthy and who wants to spend some money buying sex. Rinse them of all they’ve got or play at Pretty Woman for a while.
Weird Things Clients Have Said to Me
Subscriber-only: Once you’ve been selling sex for a while, you amass a lot of strange stories. Depending on how precarious of a situation you’re in, they might skew towards weird and horrifying or weird and funny.
Jack Talks About Sex Work 